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One fine day when I was sitting at home with a luscious, gooey piece of chocolate truffle cake I was looking at my old pictures. The ones before my pregnancy to be precise. That very moment I felt a sharp pang of guilt. I could only adore that beautiful, slender and thin waistline and I wished to get it back. Pregnancy, childbirth and every moment after that can pretty much make a mess out of you and your body if you do not take good care of yourself. Back then when I was pregnant I loved my changing body, my gradually growing belly but, right now at this exact moment if given a chance I would surely go back in time and undo a lot of things. By then my cake was already in my tummy happily adding on an extra layer of fat.
I know I am not the only lady who has this unending complaint. If I move around taking a poll I am sure that India’s elections will not gather as many votes as I will get for this statement of mine. Zero figure and being thin has been over exaggerated by our good old bollywood which plays a major role in our lives. I wonder how on earth do these actresses look so atrociously beautiful one day post their delivery. Let alone posing and flashing their best smiles ever. On the flip side, I was in a totally different condition. I could barely walk on the second day of my delivery, my long tresses were in their worst state and I had these sharp, blinding pains in my tummy and hands (thanks to the innumerable IV bottles). And oh! how can I forget. I was also dealing with a lactation and breastfeeding issue. In short, I was a walking talking zombie. That kept people at a safe distance from me and thankfully no one asked me to pose for pictures.
So, after a few months (when I was in a sane state of mind) I thought of starting some form of exercise to lose that stubborn layer of fat on my body. That too failed miserably due to sleeping and eating patterns and managing the home and baby etc. There! I went back once again into my shell of excuses and procrastination. Did I forget to tell you about my self esteem and confidence levels ? These words did not even exist in my dictionary back then. But, yes the cakes and the junk and maggi were still my best friends.
Finally, when I had to go out for a party and my baby was old enough to be taken out I realized the pile of mess I had created for myself. I had a cupboard full of clothes. Trendy, stylish and pretty ones I must say but, I couldn’t even get into one of them. I secretly hoped and wished and prayed while trying each outfit that at least one would fit me or worse yet my body would just miraculously shrink. That is what happens when nothing works. You tend to call god. But, what can he do? He tried to warn you through your conscience when you were greedily gulping down that last pani puri but, you chose to ignore him. So, let us give him a break this time.
The icing on the cake was once again those pesky acquaintances who never missed a chance to comment on my weight and my fitness (who by the way need to take a good second look at themselves) by saying things like “you looked so delicate on your wedding day” “fat doesn’t suit you” etc. I chose to completely ignore them though and this works like magic. Closing my eyes and throwing them off a cliff in my mind’s eye was so satiating. Please do try this once and I know you will thank me for it.
After a lot of trial and errors and more errors, I have embarked upon my much coveted weight loss journey for which “I am joining Saffola#ApneTareekeSeHealthy and sharing my ways of being healthy in association with BlogAdda. I still have a huge pile of obstacles but, I am holding on with a strong will power and am slowly getting back to the confident me. A few simple changes in your diet and lifestyle and some exercises is all you need. I love dancing so i have enrolled in a dance class three days a week for an hour. The icing on the cake is my toddler too loves to dance (has taken.after his mom in this trait) so, we both have a few minutes of dancing sessions daily. Its like a double deal for me wherein I get to work on my body and we both have our fun moments. I do not really follow a strict diet as I am a big time foodie but, yes I have surely started keeping a watch on what goes on my plate. Its a time taking process but, I am surely seeing the results and loving it 😊
Mommies, we all have been through the same emotions of feeling like a nothing and a no one but, trust me it is only you who can change that. Yes, a few loving and supportive friends and family members will make a lot of difference but, at the end of the day its only you who can turn the tables. I know it is difficult but, please take that step and do not coil yourself in a room of darkness else you will end up there for a very long time.
And remember, the next time someone body shames you, just smile at them (go that extra mile and thank them if you wish to) and go about minding your own business.